fun times

I am having fun. There, I said it. I feel like I often complain on this blog or I use it for a place to vent and let go of some of the frustrations and fears and mysteries of parenting. But the past few days, while he can be a bit exhausting, he and I have had a lot of fun. We laugh and giggle and cuddle. He asks for things clearly now. Last night as I was reading him his bed time story he closed the book and said “Mommie, sleep.” “You want to sleep?” I said. “Sleep.” He said and fell back in my arms with his thumb in his mouth. It sound so minor but for him to clearly ask me to bring him to bed….well, it is such a vast and extraordinary step to have taken in one year. How can he be such a real and separate little person so quickly? As it grows warmer out and we hit the playgrounds Lukas and I are having fun. I guess I just want to share some of the many positive and joyful aspects of being a mom. Sometimes I just feel a little guilty. If I am having fun is it really work?